In Waiting to Wait, I spoke of how I was approaching the time when I would cease anticipating the anticipation of the final result and simply begin to wait for it. That time came faster than was expected.
Yesterday, I received notice of the final decision of the administrative law judge on my application for Social Security Disability. The decision was favorable. I will henceforth be getting a very small monthly disability payment and a large lump sum payment to compensate me for the 24 months (2 years) since I first filed my application.
“I will henceforth be getting,” but not so as you can tell. The lawyer told me today it could take up to 6 weeks (1.5 months). That means a month and a half of living in the street, a month and a half of soup kitchens, a month and a half of sleeping in doorways, a month and a half of sleeping with one eye open and looking over my shoulder every other time, a month and a half of enduring frightened and disgusted looks from “normal” people, and a month and a half of (simply put) struggling to remain alive and sane.
I have been back on the street about a month and a half, so I have that much time again to go again. The first month and a half felt like six months. The next month and a half will probably seem at least as long, especially seeing as how now I am in anticipation of something actually good at the end. By the end of three months I will feel as though I have been through a year. Time’s Fun when your having Flies. Speaking of flies . . . . . never mind . . . . .
Well, this result CERTAINLY alters my outlook on several minor and one MAJOR point in my life. I have rewritten the ABOUT page to reflect this. For those of you who don’t know that of which I speak, I’m sorry. You missed it. 🙂
Well, I am going to sign this for now. I’ve got a toothache. Like you care! 🙂
P.S. I got a treat last night and was able to sleep in a motel. Thanks, You-Know-Who!